An anatomy of anger

Maybe I’ve just been lucky or maybe I’ve been unobservant, but I didn’t know that there were so many ways to feel anger.

I knew that there were many ways to feel happy; there’s the backwash of an endorphin rush generated by laughing for ages with friends about something very silly indeed; there is the animal feeling of well-being which comes from just enough of the right sort of exercise; there is the whooping feeling of joy when something longed-for actually happens, like good exam results. There is the feeling of emotions easing and relaxing when you spend a really enjoyable time doing nothing in the sunshine.

What I hadn’t known is that there are many ways to feel anger.

  • There was the feeling of incoherent shock and stomach-sinking horror when Channel 4 revealed the MTAS security breaches which left me breathless and speechless
  • There was the sharp feeling of brittle rage at the thought that those responsible for MTAS might destroy the project documentation to hide their accountability and incompetence.
  • There has been the ongoing dull ache of anger that Blair and Hewitt were immovably in power, which has been superseded by a persistent feeling of uneasiness about who and what will replace them.
  • There has been the sense of joint-aching frustration at the arrogance, disrespect and inhumanity of forcing doctors and their families to up-sticks and move to places they have no desire to be; separating partners, families and generations.
  • There have been the sick waves of helpless horror at the administrative cruelties of people who made offers to the most vulnerable individuals – those who will never be permitted to apply for specialist training again – and then withdrawn them with no more than a curt explanation which has been no explanation at all.
  • There has been the crawling distaste and visceral withdrawal from the bland complacency shown by the seniors who were happy to hang the whole world out to dry, juniors, patients, health service and all so long as they didn’t lose their chance of rimming Hewitt and Blair in exchanges for political favour.
  • There was the pure blast of ice-burning rage at when Hewitt demanded – and got – costs

I had no idea there were so many ways to feel anger, but I guess the thesaurus should have warned me:


Visual Thesaurus - one of the cooler ways to feel delight

In the last six months? All of the above.

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3 responses to “An anatomy of anger

  1. The adjective “impotent” comes to mind when describibg anger. The people who’ve been most heavily shat upon by this are seemingly unable to do anything about it.

    Isn’t umbrageous a marvellous word? I intend to use it at least once today.

  2. The whole MTAS (and MMC run through training changes) initially had me incandescent but has left me incredulous and thoroughly bemused that politicians are ineptly and perniciously meddling in an arena (of complex specialist medical training) that they’re ill informed and wholly inexperienced in.

    I’d say your anger is more helpful than my despair since anger can empower you to act 🙂

  3. I liked umbrageous too, Teuchter. And huffy. And stroppy though that’s not on the list. I got asked today by one of my team-members if I would “write an arsy email for us please”. Nice to have one’s uses.

    The Shrink – your despair is one of the things that helps my anger burn. Call it the oxygen, with MMC and MTAS being the crap it’s burning up. We ask you to help us when we’re ill. The least we can do in return is fight-back when you are abused, undermined and attacked.

    Thanks, both, for reading and for commenting.

    Aphra.

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